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Invisible threads
Binding us together
In a weave of surrender and steadfast conviction
A gradual release
Of our defence
Then the fear of what if
Covering our ears from its sinister scenarios
Sweet creature
Gather your breath
Before honouring me with your choice
To birth your desire to be owned
I’ve scattered all the landmarks
And planted all the signs
So knowing me is easy
I’m not difficult to find
You’ll need a eye for detail
And a chunk of time to kill
For my heart and mind are expressive
Many pages have they filled
I promise you will see me
Should you care to look inside
All my writings left like breadcrumbs
Serving as your guide
You’ll see the highs and lows of me
And how sometimes they overlap
As you stroll the pathways of who I am
They will turn in to a map
There is nothing weak about surrender. Infact to do so you have to be strong. You need to know yourself enough to communicate your fears, fantasies, and insecurities. It takes conviction to continue to serve on the days your not feeling it. Those days will be there, life is never easy. It’s in your drive to continue, to persevere that makes you powerful.
And in witnessing your strength I become weak to you. To see you kneel, to hear you speak my title. Providing you the dominance so you feed me with your submission.
This power transfer dance nourishes us both. With its delicate brutalities, captivating surrenders. Powerful whispers, and wordless declarations.
Dizzying in its contradictions and ironies and mutual need. Grounding in its euphoric energy flow. We rotate around one another in our mutually made gravity.
Come here a while
And let the world grow silent
As you lower yourself to your knees
At my feet
Let my hands release the tension
Of the day and your thoughts
As your head finds my lap
And my hand strokes your hair
Take solace in this surrender
Let go of the protection of control
Wrap your arms around my legs
As your eyes close in the warmth of us
Here there is calm
A respite from your tasks and expectations
A landing place for us both
To regroup and re-Center
Seek shelter here
For I feel hollow without a occupant
Rest in my shadow
For without a body to soothe it is only darkness
This stillness moves us both
Invigorates and reanimates
So that my smile reaches my eyes
And they glow with pride when you meet them
And just as you came and I accepted
How you knelt and lowered your head
You accept my hand as I pull you to rise
Back to your feet from where we started
A dizzying loop of seek and surrender
My voice in your mind shaping your actions
The beauty of your consent
And the alchemy of what together we foster
They are carried on the breeze
Wafting through my mind
In and out of focus
Phantoms of what was
Do you see them?
Taunting in moments of softened defences
Shimmering remnants of moments past
Kneeling before me, your upturned face
Energy once ablaze dwindles to embers
A glow for what I hope to find
You provided the outline once
And left me with echos
How they taunt me
There is cruelty in these skeletons
Hollow space at my feet, in faith in submission, between their ribs
I can see right through all the cracks
I can feel it happening
The shedding of defences
As you lower my guard
Against my will
I could stop you if I wanted
Yet hope is a funny thing
Zapping me of fight or flight
Keeping me frozen in your arms
I think I’ll watch this play out
Let happiness peek through
All the cracks I have
That you somehow see as beautiful
He whispers comforting words in the dark
Pets my hair while my head wrests on his chest
Promises to stay with me always
As I close my eyes and breathe him in
He wraps me up with his body
Covers me with the security of the weight of himself
Empties my mind as he fills me
And I cry out in passion
Come to me darling boy
Let me touch you back to life
Breath you in to motion with the warmth of my lips
Lay down sweet creature
Let me take control of all your secrets
Give up the fight and I’ll give up my heart
Close your eyes adored one
I’ll drift you away on waves of security
Remind you how much your worth in your surrender
I need you to shatter me
Break me apart with your eagerness to uncover my mystery
Remove my defences with the wrecking ball of your intensity
I need you to keep pace with me
Match my desire with your own
Captivate my mind by allowing me to see all of yours
I need you to desire this lifestyle
To long for a place beside me like a lifeline
To understand that you are just as much mine
Where submission is a refreshing drink of water for you
I need you to understand yourself
Well enough to build a life with me
Mixed with a dynamic and partnership
That allows us both to flourish like never before
Sometimes the urge breaks through the surface
And I find myself nuzzling a jaw
Or launching myself in to a warm lap
I’ll wrap myself around you
Put my ear over your heart
Take a deep breath
And remember I’m no longer a little
I’ll pop every single bubble
Of the baby girl who tries to come out
Because I would rather break myself
Then let someone break me again
Sometimes I’ll forget
I’ll squeal and bounce with abandon
Until the weight of the damage
Reminds me to sit still and be strong
When I sleep at night
It’s with my panda
Because I can’t allow myself a daddy
Just to be abandoned again
Sometimes she bubbles up
The baby girl he trampled and left
And I pet her hair and count down
Until she finally falls asleep
Because when she surfaces it’s agony
Knowing I can’t let her out again
Swallowing down my tears
While I keep focused on my destination
Sometimes when you kneel for me
I break from remembering
How it felt to be kept and loved
And have the weight of a hand on my head
When you put your head on my lap
And I pet you
I can almost pretend
Like one day it could be me
Lips of a Soul 